Abra J. Espitia Gist: Mexican Indigeneity and the Multidimensional Self

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Windward Review are honored to highlight Volume 22: Revolution contributor Abra J. Espitia Gist, a writer, teacher, and multimodal creative born and raised in Texas.

Gist holds her MFA in Poetry from Texas State University. Her poems, short stories, and songs are cross-genre, multilingual pieces that explore both this world and the ancient worlds of her Mexican Indigenous ancestors. She loves to write about the complexity of identity and the wandering journey of exploring the multidimensional self. She draws much of her inspiration from the years she spent in West Texas working alongside her grandma practicing curanderismo as traditional native healers. 

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Photo of Bandera, TX, United States by Braden Collum.

Her works can be found in the Houston Chronicle, Porter House Review, RED INK Journal, and Pour Vida Zine, among others. She loves exploring the outdoors and nature, practicing and teaching yoga, raising her two sweet pups, and being a closeted bedroom musician. 

Gist will be published in Volume 22: Revolution which will be available October 29th, 2024. Enjoy a sample of her breathtaking poetry below.

Coyolxauhqui Takes Back Her Dance 

Oh! Great Mother  
they are staring at me in the Aztec Templo Mayor en Tenochtitlan.  

I ring my coyolli bells | enter their dreams | carry their wishes up to the Milky Way  
they call me evil sister | ruthless one | defeated one  

but they are staring at my dance | down the steps watching  
my hips | belly | breasts | shoulders shapeshift   
they enter conocimiento | initiating   
healing trabajos with   
each eye on me  

in my wounds  
they have fallen  
under my serpent spell 

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soon they will enter the night | search  
the skies | mark calendars | count days  
holler coyote gritos | name my moons | purr canciones  
for planting | harvest | talk spirits  
dance naked with me  
align the blood of their   
women with me  
enter my   
body mind  
soul   
 
forever  
mesmerized little   
luna-souls 

Photo: Palo Duro Canyon outside Amarillo, TX, July 2022 by K. Mitch Hodge.
 

Mitztemoa Noyollo³ the song of tonalli, teyolía, tinnitus, and ihiyotl 

I will close this circle  
with a remedy   
for the ringing inside me  
 
Grito: Mitztemoa Noyollo!  
 
my head – my heart – my liver  
my lost luna spirit soul   
calls out to you  
across the cosmos  
 
Grito: Mitztemoa Noyollo!  
 
time is a spell  
I will learn to listen  
I will learn to see  
I will dance with my body  
to escape it  
 
Grito: Mitztemoa Noyollo!  
 
Can you feel me pull your heartstrings?  
I will shapeshift until you find me  
I will search the cenotes and dark caves  
Can you heal me with your heartstrings?  
 
Grito: Mitztemoa Noyollo!  

If I don’t find your heart today  

Grito: Mitztemoa Noyollo!  

I will find your heart tomorrow  

³Nahuatl for “My heart is looking for your heart”.    

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 Photo of Guadalupe Mountains by Leonardo Corral, 2020.